Thursday, February 14, 2008


Its only February 2008 and already so many things are changing for me, all for the better.
I haven't spoken to many of you in so long because I've been so busy and I am so sorry.
Still you know I love you so here's the update.
  • I'm in school finally finishing my undergraduate degree.
  • I started going back to Bikram (yoga, that is.)
  • I've lost 8 pounds.
  • I started my own company, Fields of Peace Productions, LLC, a multimedia production company.
  • I've been invited to participate in a group photography exhibit at Jamaica Cultural Arts Center in April.
  • I'm putting the finishing touches on the contract for my book "He's Gone' You're Back: The Right Way to Get Over Mr. Wrong".
  • I broke up with my boyfriend on Friday--emphasis on boy.
Yes so there's a lot going on and when I look at the last two bullet points I can't help but ask myself: Isn't it ironic, don't cha think?

I mean, here I am, having written a book about recovering from a breakup, having finally found a publisher ( the book will be out in 2009 guys and I can't wait for you all to read it! I'm so excited!!) and - ugh!- I'm broken up. What the fuck?!! Opps. I mean , What the freak. (Can one even curse on these blogger thingies? Are the internet police going to come and arrest me ? I hope not because I have a sinking feeling this will not be the first or last expletive I use on this blog but I promise to try.)

Anyway, yes. I saw him on Friday and it was clear to me that it, the relationship, him, me and us was not want I wanted. It just was no longer working. I was tired of being the one holding everything together all by myself. I'm a girl, not glue! So I let go. I'm sure all of my friends know how long overdue it was, but still. Damn! Now what do I do?

Hey! Here's a thought! How about if I take my own advice ( the advice I will be doling out in my forthcoming book)? How about if I accept my decision, stick with my guns, focus on myself, work towards my goals, heal my ailments (physical and emotional) have faith in the future and move the fuck on? (Opps I did it again!)

Sounds like a plan, right? All right. I can do this. I know I can. I've done it before-- pulled myself and my life together after a failed relationship--and can, will, and must do it again. But I can't do it alone. I need you, my people. I need your comments, support, love and encouragement. I need you to invite me to mixers and introduce me to your cute cousins and/or co-workers. I need you to tell me how you've healed from heartache and remind me that I can do it, too.

To be honest though I'm not that crushed. I have been back and forth and up and down with this guy for so long that I actually feel relieved. I probably wouldn't even be obsessing about it except fpr this fact--TODAY IS VALENTINE'S DAY! Everybody's all in love and there's kissing and flowers and diamond rings. I have to laugh at my timing for the breakup-- which I will refer to in the future as my Relationship Release--but hey, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. So you know what I'm going to do? I'm going to love myself today. I'm headed out the door to do some shopping, I'm going to buy myself some flowers,then I'm going to take a yoga class, then I'm gonna go enjoy music and cocktails at a friend's album release party. I think I deserve to dance, don't you?


© T.I. Williams said...

Hey love your progress thus far is amazing! I am in awe of your willingness to put it out there that you too struggle with breaking up and that while the process is a challenge, it is a challenge you are willing to meet head on!

You were glowing the last time I saw you and I look forward to more days of your golden hue!

Stay focused and stay talented, on this and on every day you are loved!



Helen said...

Kerika! The blog is well worth the wait. As for your 'Relationship Release' you do deserve to dance! I look forward to reading more. Looks like I'm going to start calling you 'Miss Midas' cause you're livin' a life that is golden!!! Love you boo! Never forget 'mah strang'!!!!

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